This moving and such is STRESSFUL. It's not like nothing's organized; 'cause it relatively is I suppose. We have so much crap still... really random stuff. Lots of clothes, Addresses to change still, homes to clean... Money I guess is a big stress. I've got a whopping $14 in my account and $5 of Timmie's money thanks to my lovely friend. Thank God I get paid Friday. I was supposed to be getting 'expense' cheques, but for some reason I haven't gotten them yet. Shucks.
So aside from moving...
The dread of Sundays. Well more or less dreading Mondays. Some days I love going to work... I guess that's a lie, there was one day that I had mentally decided I was going to make it a good day, and it was~! I just don't seem to have energy to be in that 'mind-set' all the time. i think my dread of work begins with the dread of the lack of sleep I know I'm going to get for the week. I guess an easy answer is to go to bed earlier, which isn't a bad thought at all. BUT I get even more depressed if I go to bed earlier 'cause the mornings seem to come even faster when I'm sleeping. Then i feel like I'm always at work and never spending time not working. I would really like to be one of those people who live for waking up at 5-6 am everyday and beginning my day. Truly though, is there anyone like that? Hmm I'm not sure.
You know when you're parents say the older you get the faster time flies, God it's true! I go to work and that's all I seem to do and I don't feel like I have time for anything else. Ever. OR I do have time but I'm so bloody exhausted. So either the lack of time or exhaustion I feel like I'm a horrible friend. Which in turn I guess that's exactly what it means, I can't suck up being tired to spend time with my friends. Not that I have a million friends. So it should be quite easy. Hopefully after Chris and I move and get settled I'll be able to organize my time a little better. First what I believe I need to do is try to change my mindset. Eat, sleep, and act healthier. Which I hope will help give me more energy and be more positive in general. I'm always a grump which I dislike about myself. Going on: be happier, healthier, a better friend, more educated, yada-yada-yada.
I just got completely sidetracked with the 'In Memory of" during the oscars. Is it just me or did they kinda cut Heath's portion short? Anyway that's a side note.
Well now I'm here thinking about Brokeback Mountain and getting vaccinated (a commercial...). I'll post another day. Ciao.
